According to the zillions of HR articles in my inbox that I mostly ignore but find helpful to have handy in case I need something on my computer screen that looks important, one of the leading causes of dissatisfaction at work is a vague job description. As in, people just straight up do not know what their responsibilities are. It can lead to unhappiness, to poor performance, to termination.
Today I was talking to someone and I said, "I just wish I knew what I was supposed to do." I was referring to a relationship, not to my job, but of course relationships are work.
If you're lucky, relationships are the best kind of work. They're challenging and rewarding, they satisfy you and force you to grow. There are all different kinds, and compensation varies. Some come with amazing benefits packages. With others you get to travel a lot and there's a pool table in the break room and company-sponsored happy hours. There are temporary jobs. There are the shitty jobs that you hold onto for maybe too long. And then there's that one incredible job you had on the shore the summer after senior year, the one that so dramatically altered your life trajectory that you cannot imagine your life without having had it.
For me, relationships are hard work that I am sometimes good at when I apply myself but that I am very exhausted by. In many ways and for many reasons. So many ways and reasons.
Maybe I'm thinking about relationships a lot because an old friend is coming to visit and this particular friend is one I'm not always sure why I keep. And at the same time, is one I'm not always sure why I treat so poorly. Maybe it's because my mom and I are choosing the tattoo we're both going to get, which brings up some things. Maybe it's because in less than two weeks I'm leaving for my two-year-anniversary-BONANZA mini vacation with Diego. (This weekend we have no plans except to sit next to a pool for a little bit and go hard on Breaking Bad. I am SO EXCITED for a weekend of nothing. Italics and capitals do not come close to emphasizing how strongly I feel.)
Well THIS post sure started as an outlet for some backed-up pictures and wound up being something else entirely, now didn't it? BYE, FELICIA.
